Fade away sweet memories

I have high hopes.



I don't let things bring me down, and I surely don't dwell on the bad things.

Its been a month since I have written in this thing. Sorry. I mean half of this isn't read anywho. Nick and I broke up, we are still extremely close. I just think... well we are headed different directions in life. and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. and I still care for him so much. But if you aren't willing to walk on the path hand in hand, its time to go your own way.

Lord how mercy, I haven't even wrote in this since Michael Jackson died. BE REAL. yup, stunner, you all know by now since its a month later. but its still crazy and so hard to sink in. you really never know when your time is up. thats what you have to live every day as your last. that's how I look at it. and for all those making fun of MJ with cruel jokes and such, just know...Michael is a legend, there isn't one artist that doesn't use his moves or something that michael has done. he was a musical genius.

FO CHEDDA.

Haha, I have no idea what that means but my favorite people say it, so it has to mean something amaze.


LOVES <3

Oh and Nick Baby, you have my heart. Forev. My baby Pattz

When I wake up... and put on my makeup..

actually no. haha, but When I wake up, I wake up next to my amazing boyfrannnnn and I wouldn't have it any other way. ")



I hate you with all my heart <3

"the dancefloor I do my best is your matress"

Everything happens for a reason, I don't know what God or Fate has in store for me, but I am following my heart this time, and this time it led me right back to Nick. Yes, some people are going to say I am stupid, others are going to hate, but I don't care. I am really and utterly happy with him. He's my baby, and this time its going to work.



My weekend was great. all weekend with Nick and Jimmy. Finally got to hang with same name. it was awesome. Played beer pong which i only do on rare occassions. it was fantas no lie.

June Bloom

Hmm, 1st post of the new month. It's started off good I suppose. lol. Umm, but first lets talk about how great the MTV awards were. Twilight won everything they were nominated for. DUHZ, thats obvious. but the most intense thing was the almost kiss between RPattz and KStew. Ughhh, Twigasm. just take a gander.



now, June.. for my birthday Jimmy bought me Coldplay tickets. which was a great show! I actually seen an old friend Ricky, which was nice. cute boy. he sat with us for a while. Yasmine was there as well. She sat with us as well. we were just pure awesomeness I guess cause everyone was wanting to sit with us. Freakin' Coldplay came out to the lawn to play, I have never been to a show at riverbend and the performers come to the lawn. so that was a total plus!



But okay thats all I got right now cause the new Daisy Of Love is on. so I have to watch that, then Tweet my girl Sara. hheaha <3333

LOVE THEM!

transformers two is going to be kick ass.
I wish I looked like her, and well banged him. haha

Lighten up the mood.

I forgot to mention all the good things that have happened. stupid bitches make me forget the good moments. damn you. haha.

I met a boy.
he's cute.
green hair.
matched me red hair.
we look like christmas.
you're jealous.
we cuddlez.
his bday is the day after mine.

ahh, such a good birthday weekend.


I hung out with NICK LONG! who would of thunk I would hang with him again? but it was all good, he isn't too shabby I suppose. hahaha, yeah.

and Stevie, you is a good cuddler while watching Aladdin. hehe, cute boy.

OH AND I'm trying to get a job at Hustler with Jimmy. this must make us really big whores because we like to look at fake penises and vibrating vaginas all day. haha.

honestly, I just like porn. :)
with this boy.