Fade away sweet memories

I have high hopes.



I don't let things bring me down, and I surely don't dwell on the bad things.

Its been a month since I have written in this thing. Sorry. I mean half of this isn't read anywho. Nick and I broke up, we are still extremely close. I just think... well we are headed different directions in life. and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. and I still care for him so much. But if you aren't willing to walk on the path hand in hand, its time to go your own way.

Lord how mercy, I haven't even wrote in this since Michael Jackson died. BE REAL. yup, stunner, you all know by now since its a month later. but its still crazy and so hard to sink in. you really never know when your time is up. thats what you have to live every day as your last. that's how I look at it. and for all those making fun of MJ with cruel jokes and such, just know...Michael is a legend, there isn't one artist that doesn't use his moves or something that michael has done. he was a musical genius.

FO CHEDDA.

Haha, I have no idea what that means but my favorite people say it, so it has to mean something amaze.


LOVES <3

Oh and Nick Baby, you have my heart. Forev. My baby Pattz

When I wake up... and put on my makeup..

actually no. haha, but When I wake up, I wake up next to my amazing boyfrannnnn and I wouldn't have it any other way. ")



I hate you with all my heart <3

"the dancefloor I do my best is your matress"

Everything happens for a reason, I don't know what God or Fate has in store for me, but I am following my heart this time, and this time it led me right back to Nick. Yes, some people are going to say I am stupid, others are going to hate, but I don't care. I am really and utterly happy with him. He's my baby, and this time its going to work.



My weekend was great. all weekend with Nick and Jimmy. Finally got to hang with same name. it was awesome. Played beer pong which i only do on rare occassions. it was fantas no lie.

June Bloom

Hmm, 1st post of the new month. It's started off good I suppose. lol. Umm, but first lets talk about how great the MTV awards were. Twilight won everything they were nominated for. DUHZ, thats obvious. but the most intense thing was the almost kiss between RPattz and KStew. Ughhh, Twigasm. just take a gander.



now, June.. for my birthday Jimmy bought me Coldplay tickets. which was a great show! I actually seen an old friend Ricky, which was nice. cute boy. he sat with us for a while. Yasmine was there as well. She sat with us as well. we were just pure awesomeness I guess cause everyone was wanting to sit with us. Freakin' Coldplay came out to the lawn to play, I have never been to a show at riverbend and the performers come to the lawn. so that was a total plus!



But okay thats all I got right now cause the new Daisy Of Love is on. so I have to watch that, then Tweet my girl Sara. hheaha <3333

LOVE THEM!

transformers two is going to be kick ass.
I wish I looked like her, and well banged him. haha

Lighten up the mood.

I forgot to mention all the good things that have happened. stupid bitches make me forget the good moments. damn you. haha.

I met a boy.
he's cute.
green hair.
matched me red hair.
we look like christmas.
you're jealous.
we cuddlez.
his bday is the day after mine.

ahh, such a good birthday weekend.


I hung out with NICK LONG! who would of thunk I would hang with him again? but it was all good, he isn't too shabby I suppose. hahaha, yeah.

and Stevie, you is a good cuddler while watching Aladdin. hehe, cute boy.

OH AND I'm trying to get a job at Hustler with Jimmy. this must make us really big whores because we like to look at fake penises and vibrating vaginas all day. haha.

honestly, I just like porn. :)
with this boy.

Okay, lets talk about it

I am in the mood to state some facts because immature little girls don't know what the hell they are talking about. so here it is. Ima post a myspace comment I got from my "so called friend" after I called her out on talking shit about me to my friends.

okay lacey. i won't add any of your 8000000 friends who you claim to actually know in person. it's cool that myspace and vh1 trash reality shows are your life. keep dreaming that everyone knows who you are and likes you. my two best guy friends who shall remain nameless both thought you were a disgusting whore, hence why they refused to date you. it's cool that you have a million guys, but doesn't that say something about your character? it's cool that you don't know how to speak correctly, you don't have a formal education, and you still work a shitty minimum wage job, not to mention you live in hamiltucky. but keep telling yourself that you'll be on the real world, keep trying, because one day the world will be so overly trashed that you might just be their last choice for trash. :D

Now let me state things in no particular order, I have an entire list.

1. first off, don't be jealous and upset that I have guy friends and claim that I am a whore. when you even said to me on multiple occasions that you are envious that I have lots of guy friends. you have had a crush on about everyone of my guy friends, and even scared the fuck out of one because you got so damn clingy, like a barnacle.

2. I don't care if you add my myspace friends, fuck it its myspace, but don't act like they requested you. because they didn't. and don't leave comments on their page such as "hey its so and so from the party, I was the girl singing" that makes you look desperate to talk to my friends.

3. as for your 2 best guy friends, I know exactly who they are, no names need to be mentioned. Your brother is my friend, and YOU tried to hook us up. I think he is attractive, but no I did not try to get with him and your little 16 yr old other best guy friend is a joke, even you made fun of him. and if you want to call someone out for trying to get famous, give him a ring because he is the one with the ridiculous "clothing line"

4. Also, don't hate that I have VH1 friends, you about had a heart attack when we called and wished one a happy birthday in the Meijer parking lot. you really are quite hilarious.

5. I don't speak correctly? hmm, how do you figure? You're the one that tries to act ghetto all the time because you can simply rap a few songs from Eazy E. WHoop di friggin' do.

6. I don't have a formal education? please, explain yourself yet again. I graduated with honors and a 3.4 GPA with many scholarships. YOU EVEN WANTED ME TO TUTOR YOU IN MATHEMATICS! because your dumb ass was failing and not going to be able to graduate. You forged your community service paper because you were too lazy to do actual work. and I chose to go to beauty school and I am very happy with the decision I made. PLEASE how about you make your own decisions because last week you were wanting to go to paul mitchell to do hair and express your creativity, but texting my friend asking what color hair dye to use. and then the next week your moving to chicago for music? make up your mind please. thank you. Also, wasn't your school invested with some kind of mildew and they had to raid it, and wasn't there an undercover cop in there because of all you crackheads? and I HAVE THE NON FORMAL EDUCATION!? Riiiight. Oh and lets not forget your father graduated from the same school as me, and he's the one supporting your family. ROCK ON FAIRFIELD.

7. Now lets go to my "minimum wage job". I make 9.50 an hour, thats not minimum wage, but you wouldn't know that because you don't even have a PART TIME JOB. and yet, I work 40 hours a week. Yet again, I am not seeing your logic on these things.

8. Last time I checked Fairfield was a lot nicer than Loveland. 'nuff said on that subject, so Hamiltucky doesn't make sense.

9. as for YOUR friends compared to MY friends, you can't count your true legit friends on one hand. You have talked about your lil friends Carlie and Shannon to me multiple amounts making fun of Carlies hair and saying shannon is just someone to walk in the halls at school with. Are you seriously that envious of Jimmy and Sara that you have to claim all I have are myspace friends? (which you add all mine) Your mother has even stated she was glad I came around because you had no friends from highschool. now thats pathetic. I'm pretty sure it was MY friends parties we went to, it was FAIRFIELD we hung out in, it was MY friends that came to the Hookah bar with us. Not once have I ever met someone you claim is a friend.

10. Oh! and lets not forget about how as soon as I get my dermals you have to scurry and get your wrist dermalized. So if I am such a pathetic person, why try to be like me? goooood, real good. :) and If I have such fake friends why try to color your hair the same as theirs? dangggg.. You've lost me.

so next time you want to call someone trash, look at the facts and don't talk random shit because I am going to call you out twice as hard.

Good Day. :)

"Dopest dope I have ever smoked" -Sal

dang, its been almost a month since I wrote on this. I am so sorry I have been busy. I hate doing catch up blogs because I feel like they are a bit scattered brained because there are so many topics to catch up on. so since April 23rd... what have I been up too!?

well lets see, I talk to Cody every day, and he is getting ready to be here. :) if you all know me, You know code. 2 peas in a pod. ya know? I miss him like crazy, but this time its legit and he's coming. whose excited? ME!



Codys on the left :) baby <33

Umm, I got a new tattoo, it goes down my ribs, and yes! it's from twilight, be jealous. it's still not finished. but it will be in about 2 weeks. I'm not posting a picture until its completely done. Jeff Davis from Skin Addiction is my tattoo artist, and I recommend him to everyone. look him up.

My birthday is in 7 days, I expect something from everyone reading this blog right now. if you're reading my blog, therefor you are a friend, therefor I deserve something from you. hahah jk, but no really! i'll be 20. no more teen years. geeze.

oh, check out www.textsfromlastnight.com , it's probably the funniest site I have ever been too. I crack up every time I read something from it. hahahaha

so its saturday morning at 6:42am and I have been up since 4:44am. I don't know why really, I guess I just couldn't sleep. I am doing my friends makeup today for her prom, and then going shopping with my momma. my rooms need retouched, my peek a boos need re highlighted and my dead ends need trimmed. So thats what I am doing tonight. whoop whoop! Oh and I am watching pineapple express right now, and OH MY! its like one of my favorite movies. haha I loveeee it.

"I like saved you with those slushies!"

It's rainy and sucks. ha I hate it. and now I am starting to ramble, so I guess i better end this blog. so here, follow me on Twitter, I update it more than this now a days. www.twitter.com/vivalalacey

Good night, time for some beauty rest.

ketchup.

I haven't wrote in a few weeks, I don't know why. I guess I have just been busy. Oops. sorrrriez. umm, this post is nothing informative, i just need to post something so all you lovelies know that I am alive. Haha.

Umm Ronnie Radke (the love of my life) is getting out of prison soon, I am so excited. He already has a new band and a couple of new songs. they are awesome, not going to lie. The band is called "from behind these walls", but as soon as Ronnie gets out they are changing the band name to "falling in reverse". both good band names.


"This war is mine." -Ronnie Radke

the new fast and furious is kick ass, just sayin' I totally recommend it. and even though I have an import car, muscle cars are so much better and I will have one one of these days. :) most likely like the ones in dazed and confused. ha

but yeah, headed off toget donuts and coffee, then off to work. more posts soon when I have the time. <3

DeeJays

I told you I need to be televised.
No one can compare to my life.
I can make anyone laugh.
My personality exceeds yours by like 100x.

Straight G's

Its all about having good friends in this world. without good friends, who are you? I would not be content with myself if I knew I had no one to laugh with, no one to drive around with and enjoy the weather on a good day, no one to think about when times get rough. Family and Friends are what I need. And, thankfully I have the best of them.

On another good note, again the 2nd weekend in a row that was totally bomb, I need to take pictures when I am with these people, but I keep forgetting to. haha, The German, C-Note and Tommy are the greatest,no doubt about it. Hookah and Cabin nights are the best hands down. From dancing in the car to techno (i'll have to upload that video) to drawing abs and penises on ourselves with highlighters, I mean seriously, if I were you, I would be totally jealous. ha. Taylor, it's about time we hung out huh!? lol. Good times Good times.

Jimmy colored easter eggs today, so I didn't get to hang out with him, bummer. Geeze Jim those better be some damn good eggs.. hahah I joke I joke.

.. Oh yeah, and basically our generation is going down, you bitch ass fuckers basically put the anti-christ into office. I will clearly speak my mind when it comes to that. I am Christian, and have strong beliefs, and I truly believe that Obama is a piece of shit. If you have your doubts, I will be glad to inform you. I am not into politics, but when a man comes into office trying to take away our rights and our values I will speak at my own will, If you have a problem with that, then don't read my blogs, its that simple. Although I will not go into depth over a computer screen, just know I will never support Obama and his real I.D.'s shit. thats all I am saying about his dumb ass.

On that note, Good Night, Ima go to sleep texting Tommy. :)

One Hour and Twenty Five minutes apart

I catch myself looking at your picture a lot more lately.
I find myself thinking about you a lot more lately.
I hope for just a 5 minute chat with you at least once a day.
stupid crush.
I like it.
Did I mention I like the shape of your lips.

My smile is my makeup.

"baby baby baby, take a good look at my face, my smile is out of place"

someone I got really close to moved back to Utah this passed week. someone I connected with, read books with, went to art exhibits with. I am going to miss you, geek.

Other than that, I have my eye on someone. First legit one in a while. He knows it. You're cute, like a muppet baby. ;)

I am Optimistic about things, I smile. I Rock.

Listening to Adam Lambert, then headed to bed. work comes early ladies and gents.
make dat money, save dat money :)

Ello, new Job.

So it's been 2 weeks since I have been at my new job, and lets just say its a bit more work than a makeup artist. haha I am not use to it. But honestly I love it. I get my own desk which is decked out in pictures of Rob Pattinson and Ed Westwick, even Jimmy gets his own little section on my desk. haha, the people are great. and the boys won't stop emailing me. haha it's all good though.

I hung out with sarah the other day, I missed her bunches, I hate when stupid rumors get started and end friendships so abruptly because honestly she is the greatest. We went to the Hookah bar with Zach bby, and Brennan. Good times. Brennan sucks a mean Dique. hahaha. kidding.

This money rollin' in means alot of new things for me. I am not telling you, but its going to be good. I am sooo high sprung sometimes.

Jimmy and I finally decided on our tattoos, no they are not matching, but yes they kind of mean the same thing and we are getting them done together hopefully. we wubs each other very much. oh hai best frann! haha. My mom even wants to go with us and get her a few tattoos.

My buddy Matsuflex didn't win tool academy, but thats okay, we are going to try and get him his own show. he is a beast. and I love him bunches. Matsu will be a revolution just wait. :D (his links are on my myspace, check him out there, I am too lazy to post them on here.)

hmm.. so this is the 1st blog of the month of March, I hope its a bit useful hahah. nothing to exciting I know, but it keeps you posted and me sane. haha.

I make my own footsteps

I don't follow yours.

I went to the Cincinnati Art Museum. I had a great time, It makes me feel good to be able to share an interest with someone and not feel out of element. it's right. It's something I love to do, and thank you for spending that moment with me.

I start my new job monday, I am really excited about it. Ima business woman, and in 6 months they pay 100% college tuition. so that means I move down to Florida with sara, keep my job but with a branch down there and start back at art school. WHOO! I am figuring this shit called life out. now someone needs to help me with laundry cause I can't do that.

Hoepfully in the next couple days I will be getting my income tax back, that means either a new camera or a new computer. I think I want a new camera instead because I am sick of using my phone, and my computer will run for a few more months I would hope.

I was suppose to meet rob pattinson march 7th, and I was super stoaked. had my dress and ticket, and then they say I can't get in VIP because I am not 21. that's bullshit. I am seriously depressed. I am about to protest. haha.


Im going to marry him, it's official

I compare to every boy that I date to Edward Cullen, so boys take notes. I am not kidding. he's perfection. vamp or not.

on another note, there is a shirt I want, it says "I MAKE GOOD BABIES", someone please get it for me, I will gives you hugs and kisses no doubt.

I need to make a hair appt. more blonde, and I need a tanning package, donations welcome. thank you. :D

the day after VALENTINES

It's the day after, and I still can't stop thinking about the day of. I had an awesome day yesterday, it just makes me thank the lord for the people he puts into my life. Just the little things mean the most to me. honestly. and I love every but of it. It's good. I'm happy where I am right now, and I like who has came into my life in the last couple of weeks.

hockey games are a must. 'nuff said.

umm, another thing, Yasmine is hanging with me again, I have missed her so much. I am so glad she is back in my life. thank you so much. I missed her. ah, i just said that 2 sentences ago. but it needs to be known. i love her. honestly. she's a friend i couldn't live without.


I want to go to the cincinnati art museum. i need to go. it's been on my mind lately. i need to get back into my greek mythology and my art. I want to take more classes on them, and start reading way more books. Thats my new objective. looking into more schools, more in Sarasota, Florida because my plans have changed a bit. once more. I am just searching for a place I can call home, not my parent's home. ya know? and I want it to be right. I thought Alabama was, but it isn't. unfortunately. I will figure it out. just give me a bit of time. I have alot of that.

Change of Pace.

this blog is going to be a bit blotchy and just rambles. so i get down everything on my mind and try not to forget as I am writing.

first, Alabama is back on. haha, I want to be there. I want the warm weather, and I want the good colleges. although Washington would be great, I need to be realistic about things. Alabama is closer, it's more of something I want, I have a better chance to succeed. just a lot of things. So there, decision made. no more wishy washy. Alabama it is. I'm going there at the end of the month to check things out. it shall be fun. I'm stoaked.

second, I went ice skating for the first time last night, scared to death I was going to die, but I made it thru the night without one fall down. I was proud of myself, and my date was stoaked that he didn't have to clean any blood up off the ice. haha, it was good times, yasmine and I had a blast with these boys, they are good guys, and I think there is a second date in arrangements. which is always good.

third, manchester orchestra is a great band, I am kinda ashamed I am just now getting to know who they are. I love them, I have listened to them non stop, and I will be going and getting the cd this weekend. whoo!

forth, I had my job interview yesterday, it went well I suppose, it was 2 hours, and they said I got excellent scores on the tests they gave me. that's always a plus. If i do get this job I will have my own desk and on computer and own phone, and can deck the stuff out my way. laceyify it. Whoo! so wish me luck and hopefully i get a call back. I would like to be a business woman of somesort.

umm, yeah thats about all I have to ramble about right now. I need to shower.

I'm like a firecracker; I make it HOT

Let's see, this post is going to be good and bad i suppose. the bad part is I am on bad terms right now with one of my best friends and it is absolutely killing me. to be honest I stuck my nose where it didn't belong and it back fired on me. I miss him like crazy, think about him all the time, and hope he is doing well, but right now he doesn't want anything to do with me. and I have no idea how to mend things because we are both bullheaded, but i have apologized over and over, there isn't much left I can do. The ball is in his hands, and honestly, I don't think he cares anymore. He has been hurt so many times by the people he was closest too, and I knew this, and unfortunately, I did the same thing but with good intentions. So we will see what will happen, I just hope to god that he comes around and we can have what we use to.

On a another note, I have been going to Hockey games, I have no idea what hockey is about, but the fights are entertaining and my friends are fun. haha good times.

this Thursday I have a job interview for another full time job, I just need the money, and need to get my head on my shoulders and stop lolligagging around. It isn't getting me anywhere.

Alabama is a no go. We have changed it to Washington, Jimmy has family in Seattle, and I have friends in Kennewick, so that works a bit better, even though the weather isn't as nice as Bama. We shall see how things turn out. hopefully good. :D

new lookout.

i have a new lookout on things.

starting now, I do not care about age in someone I date. age is just a number. if your younger or a century older (jasper hale), I will get to know you before I put out my judgement. I am a hopeless romantic, so if love comes from someone out of my comfort zone, I am going to leap. I don't care, I'm ready.

That's what has been on my mind. also, I am addicted to Twilight, I am reading the books over and over, and going to see the movie at least once or twice a week. it's becoming an obsession. So FYI, if you are interested in me, you better step up and your Edward Cullen instincts better come out. just sayin'

The New Year. :]

Well January has started, and this new year is already going great. Let's talk about it. Jimmy is my best friend, someone who hasn't betrayed me, and never will. we have had our ups and downs, butttt what best friend doesn't? we aren't robots people. haha at least not yet. But anyway, We need to get out of Ohio, We need to find ourselves, start fresh somewhere. We have decided to move to Alabama. We are stoked about it. :D

We go in February to look at things, apartments, jobs, schools all that fun stuff. We are going to go stay with my baby Chris for 2 weeks, then coming back home for a couple months, gettin' our money situated, buying furniture, and saying our good byes to Cincinnati. There is nothing here for us anymore, the only thing I'll miss is my family, but it is time to fly from the nest. "time to grow up baby girl".

so yeah, that's what is new in January, so talk to me about it if you want to, questions and answers. its exciting. ain't turning my back this time. :D