Change of Weather?

So these past couple of days I have been in a weird mood. I don't know what it is really, or why I am feeling this way. But the only thing I can possibly think of is I feel like if I am missing something in my life. I don't want to sound all emo or what not, but I have only lost one thing recently, so could that be it? I didn't think it would make this much of an impact on me, but I think it really is. Hmm, I don't know maybe I am just thinking crazy. Who knows? But I miss alot of things that have to do with this one thing that has kinda sorta forgotten about me. I know you are confused, But I know what I am rambling about, and that is all that really matters I suppose.

I think my life is at a breaking point right now. I don't know, just another crazy thought. But let's see, I have a half-ass part time job, not going to school, and not a committed relationship with someone. Not so good? All I have is a fantastic family, and a great set of friends, I guess that's all I really need. :) I don't know what I want to do with my life. I sit and try to think about what is going to be the perfect career for me, but I feel as if Ohio doesn't have much to offer. Maybe I am crazy and just indecisive. who knows? But the only real thing that I can think of that I would be absolutely satisfied doing is being a mother and wife and staying at home cooking pies and making my family happy. But it's hard for women to do that these days because you need a hard working job to just survive. I want to do something with my creative side, but what? an art teacher was on my list. but will i be happy? Don't know. I thought the makeup thing was what I wanted to do. I was soo set on it, Had a great job working with Christian Dior, and I just bombed it. It hit me that I didn't want to do it anymore. So.. I don't know. I am 19, and still indecisive on life.. Is that bad? Oh Well, my parents are here to support me with whatever I decide to do.

So yeah, that's whats on my mind right now. I guess I will just have to see if this feeling moves on. but I don't know.

I always..

Speak way to soon. Enough said.
I'm finished.






Went to Columbus with my best friend. Had one hell of a time with Cute is what we aim for, secondhand serenade, a rocket to the moon, and automatic love letter. It was a blast. That's all i can say on a good note.

Girls Don't wanna have fun, they wanna start drama.

I don't understand why almost 95% of females are the same way when it comes to their boyfriends. I mean, Can't guys have friends that are girls? I mean, I must be the only girl out there that doesn't have a jealous bone in her body when it comes to my boyfriends having girls as friends. oh well, I guess i am just that big of a threat. haha kidding. no but seriously let me ramble for a bit because i haven't gotten the chance to in a while, and its 2am and i have nothing better to do with my life besides write this blog and text Vince about High school musical. Haha anywho.. here we go.

Number Uno: a boyfriend is more than just a status you have with someone, it's a bond. a bond on trust for number one, if you don't have that trust in your boyfriend to 'allow' him to talk to other girls, then you don't need a relationship with him. and i put allow in quotes, because he can DO whatever he wants, you are his girlfriend not his mother. Please realize that he chose you, not the other girl. it is a mere friendly conversation when your boyfriend talks to other girls. Trust people TRUST! it's the foundation of a relationship. and honestly, if you don't trust the one your with 99% of the time, you have something yourself that you are hiding, and yet guilty of.

Number Dos: do not TIE your boyfriend down. why would he want that? you don't want that. so don't do it to him. take my advice, I am talking sense right now. Fellas will read this and knod their heads. i understand you like the boy. (i like one in particular very much) but i am not about to ruin it by being on his nuts every second of the day. when he wants to talk to me, he will. I will not push him, because in the end that will only push him away. Ever play cards? let the chips fall. it's okay you don't talk to someone every single day. just think, the more you are away from him, the more you miss him, therefore when you do see him... its so much better. at least i think so. and in a new relationship don't text constantly. it isn't healthy, if your texting all the time, he is getting bored with you, and won't call you. I would rather here my boys voice, than a texting all the time. just sayin'



man listen to my rambling. there is no need for this. i could be sleeping right now. so i think thats what i am going to do. go lay down. but you need to dwell on what i said in this entry ladies because you are getting bad when it comes to the opposite sex, and you are ruining it for gals like me that know how to handle a good relationship with an awesome guy.
kthanks.
goodnight.

Cabin Nights & Fire Frights.

soooooo i love my life with my friends. i am sitting here with nate cakes and sarah bear right now. so i have to write rarely quick. :) but we are hanging in the cabin tonight, like we did last night. and nathan got burned by fire jokin' around and singed his hair. hahha it was great. we heard banshees and bugs, and nathan can even cricket tune.


okie dokie pokie i am donkie. hahhaa.,